My dear Vanessa

Vanessa I can't believe you are 2 1/2 now, feels like yesterday that I was pregnant with you, wondering when I would get to meet you! When my due date came and went, and you still weren't here I knew that you were going to be one stubborn little girl, and look at you today, YOU ARE!!! I guess you get that from both me and daddy! ;) 

When you were born, I never thought 2 1/2 years later that I would be able to hold a conversation with you, and understand every word your saying to me, listen to you say your ABC's, and count to 10. You have accomplished so much that it makes me sad how fast you are growing up! The only good thing is, is that daddy has given me the opportunity to be a stay at home mom, where I have been there for every milestone of yours and looking forward to seeing you accomplish even more!

I just want to tell you that I am so proud of you! You have proven me wrong, people told me that there would a chance that you would start digressing when your little brother came into this world, and I can officially say that if anything you have grown up even more! You love him more than ever, you run for him when you hear him crying, and you want to change his bum every time he wakes up even if he may not need it! You are such a big help, and I am so blessed to be your mom! I thank God everyday that he picked me to be your mommy <3

 2 weeks old <3

 2 1/2 years old <3

Showing Max some Love <3

Had to share

This after noon I was working, when I could hear Vanessa's Baby Alive doll making noises! I then could hear Vanessa whispering "oh baby... shhhh, night night baby". I started to laugh cause I couldn't figure out what she was doing... so I went around the corner to find her sitting on the floor rocking with her baby in her arms...and trying to get her baby to take her bottle.Then the baby started crying so she got up and started walking around the living room saying "uh no.... shhhhh" It was the cutest thing, she was doing what any mom would do! Oh how they grow up! 

How cute... thats the mommy coming out =)

Her baby soon stopped making noise, and than I head "ya.. me done" LOL

Terrible 2's

Everyone always said you will have sooo much fun when the terrible 2's start. Well I thought ya ya, ok, they won't be that bad. OH how I was wrong.. 

My daughter started them a few months ago, but in the past couple weeks she's really testing her limits! She has figured out how to take the plastic things out of the outlets and now wants to plug cords in for us... NOT GOOD.... she has also figured out how to open doors, and lock them. She has locked herself in the bathroom.. and couldn't figure out how to unlock the door.. oopps! 

She comes in while I am showering the past couple days, sits on the floor and tells me stories! That is cute... I have to admit... but I would like my quiet time in the shower as for the rest of the day I am running around like a chicken with it's head cut off making sure she's not getting into trouble. 

I feel for those moms that have more than one that they have to chase after, I do feel for you! I think its tough for me, but it most be worse for them. I praise those mom's who handle it, and keep from going crazy! 

Don't get me wrong, my daughter isn't always a bad girl, she has her days where she is cuddly and just wants to sit and play with mommy. OH how I love those days, but lately they have been far and few between =( makes me sad to think how fast my little girl has grown up. 

When I have my venting moments to my mom or dad, they always tell me to suck it up, and think what they went through with both my brother and I.... and just tell me to wait till I have another kid and I will know true frustration.. I just look at them and say "yeah ok"... LOL

Even on the days that she drives me nuts, she can make me laugh with what she says or does... She may drive me nuts, 

BUT I STILL LOVE HER! She'll be my baby no matter how bad or big she gets. 

My big girl =)

Blast from 20 months ago

I was taking a moment away from work, to do a little on my daughter's scrapbook when I came across photos of our short stay in the hospital after Vanessa was born, while my mother-in-law was there meeting her newest grand-daughter.

Looking at the pictures I got tears in my eyes, that day was full of so many different emotions, happiness, scariness, joy, sadness and so many more. 

I miss my little girl being soo tiny! It feels like yesterday that she was born, and we were cuddling in the hospital bed. Oh how I miss that day. 

But today I have a gorgeous 20 month old daughter, who brings me such joy everyday. I will always have the pictures to look back on when I am missing her being tiny. 

Vanessa Mae =) Mommy loves you <3

Taking mommy by surprise!

These past few days when my daughter learns new words, she'll say them, turns all red like shes embarrassed and covers her face. It's cute and funny at the same time. 

She has taken me by surprise lately by saying words that I didn't think she knew, like last night when my mom was running her a bubble bath (she likes baths at her nana's as its their quiet time together), she looks like her nana and says " nana bubbles! Ya bubbles, bubbles!" I was shocked she knew what was in her bath as she had never had a bubble bath before and we never told her what they were. :) 

After her bath she was playing with her aunt, and they were pretending to be frogs (I'll mention her aunt is only 10 years old) and the next thing we knew she was bouncing on her legs like a frog and saying "ribbit". When we clapped and said "good girl" her face turns red, and she hides her face.

Vanessa takes me by surprise everyday, she is becoming so smart. She knows the first few letters of the alphabet, and a couple numbers. I couldn't ask for a smarter, more gorgeous daughter. I am a lucky mommy! <3

Miss independent!

Everyday my little girl wants to do more and more for herself. She's on this kick of picking her own clothes 

even if mommy has already chosen them they aren't what she wants to wear. I remember when it didn't matter 

what I choose as it would 

be totally fine, but now it's not. She's also on this total kick of having to walk ALL the time and EVERY

time even if it's icy and I am afraid she might slip, I CAN'T pick her up. In the event I do pick her up she looks at 

me after screaming and she says 

"mommy mine not a baby." When she says that to me 

it bring tears to my eyes because I realize that she isn't a baby

anymore shes growing up fast. 

She's also on this whole "being a mommy" to her dolls. She gets her old bottles and wants water in them so 

she can feed her babies. She looks at them and says "yum yum".  

It brings back memories to when I used to say that to her while feeding her. 

On days I feel teary eyed and I want my baby fix and remember

those days, I look at all the pictures I took and think 

I should have taken more, I don't have enough. I guess enough is never enough when it comes 

to your baby, and trying to capture every moment.

 At the end of the day when she crawls onto the 

couch with her bottle, blanket and bear to watch her cartoons before bed she looks like my little baby, 
and acts like one too.

How time flies!

I can remember back to the day we brought Vanessa home, it didn't start out too good, as we were leaving the hospital my husband realized that he had locked the keys in the car ( thank goodness hes a tow truck driver and knows how to unlock cars) and that it was the beginning of July and the weather was nice. After 20 minutes we were on our way home, and that's when I remember starting to feel overwhelmed and wondering if I could possibly do this. After a few weeks went by we got our daughter onto a good retinue and the over whelming feeling went away. 

After the first few months time just seemed to fly by, and my daughter was learning so much so fast. Before I knew it she was 3 months, eating baby food, and learning to roll over onto her belly and then back to her back. I felt like I blinked and she was learning to crawl, walk, and talk. She started with the basics "mama" "dada" and "bubba" and at 10 months, she was walking, running, climbing stairs, and talking up a storm. 

Everyday she learns something new, which is super exciting. A few months ago she learned "nana" "papa" "jay jay" (her uncle Jason) "uh oh" "no" "bye bye" "hi". These past few weeks she has been saying "thank you" "welcome" "apple" "orange" and some that I wish I knew what they were. LOL. She is on this whole "mine" thing now, everything is hers, even if its not. It can be cute, but its also super frustrating. "NO" is her new favorite word these days, she wants to do everything on her own. My little girl went from being dependent on me to now wanting to be independent and do things on her own.

I am proud of everything that she has accomplished up to today, and can't wait to see what tomorrow holds. You don't believe when people tell you how much a child can accomplish in such a little time until you experience it yourself. It is the most amazing feeling to see your child grow, but at the same time it is a sad feeling cause you think about the little baby they used to be and aren't anymore. 


I <3 you Vanessa!